Life has been especially difficult for me in the past few weeks as you
all know. In fact, life has been difficult for the past ten plus years. I
have had so much responsibility caring for elderly parents. The constant
doctor and hospital visits. The frightening middle of the night phone
calls. The inability to have any kind of life of my own. While I accepted
this responsibility gladly, it does take it's toll. I have experienced many a
sleepless night, many panic attacks and the overwhelming fatigue that
comes with all of the perpetual stress.
While I will never stop missing my parents, nor will I stop being concerned about
my Aunt's ill health, it's time for me to move forward with my life. I should not
feel guilty about pursuing happiness. I have done my job. It's time to close my
eyes at night and dream sweet dreams without fear over a middle of the night
It's time to start enjoying favorite pastimes once again.
By the way, all of these illustrations are by Susan Wheeler.
I have always loved her art work. Her scenes just take me to
a cozy, homey place and make me feel happy.
Life is a gift. It's important to enjoy each moment of it. It's really
not a selfish thing, because when one is happy it's impossible not
to spread that happiness around.
Happiness does not cost a penny. We can find happiness anywhere.
It's our happy attitude that changes everything.
I am being kind to myself. Giving myself time to heal. Time to refresh
and renew my soul. I am choosing to be happy and my goal is to ...
spread this happiness around!
Come on Bentley ~ let's go get comfy on the sofa and watch season one
of the Mary Tyler Moore Show on dvd. It's your Aunt Robin's
favorite show, and mine too!
Big Texas Hugs,
Susan and Bentley