Rediscovering My Authentic Self

What happens to us as we pass through the years?  Are we still the

child with hopes and dreams and great plans for the future?  

The passage of time has not been quite the way I expected.  I have

stepped back recently to take a hard look at my past and how it has

shaped my present.  When we are young, the days and the seasons

move by at a much slower pace.  I'm not sure at what age the days

began to speed up, but they did.  I suppose I was so busy being busy 

that I did not even notice the change.  I didn't realize that the laser 

like focus for my passions was slipping through my fingers.

I was always creative, yet somehow that creativity began to wain.

Once again, not sure exactly when it happened, but it did.  Slowly

my perspective became less about what I liked, and more about

what others liked.  Being a people pleaser began to cloud my

vision and my self confidence.  That spark for life, that passion I

once had was being stripped away, and I was doing little to

stop it.  

Not long ago, I shouted STOP!   It doesn't matter what others

think.  It matters what I think.  I started to eliminate what was no

longer benefitting me, and that included some people too.  Why

should I fill a minute of my time trying to get along with others

who were not putting any effort to get along with me?   I 

decided to let them go.  I wish them well, but I can no longer 

afford to waste my time trying to fit in with others who have

little interest with me.  Almost immediately, I felt a weight

lifted off my shoulders.   The next thing I did was to stop telling

myself I must do this or that.  We all have obligations that we 

can't avoid, but if you look closely at your life, you will soon

realize that many of these "obligations" are created in our

own minds and that nothing bad will happen if we let them go.

Don't procrastinate.  Get done what needs to be done and then

immediately begin focusing on what you want to do.  

Once you clean out the cobwebs in your mind, you will have

the space you need to focus on goals.  Start a plan to fulfill

the dreams you once had, but were shoved aside.  There is no

more "one day", that day is now!  Take hold of it!  It doesn't matter

what others think, in actuality it only matters what you think.

I'm on my way to rediscovering my authentic self, and it's a

long overdue journey.  

Big Texas Hugs,

Susan and Bentley