My Mom Had a Stroke

My Mom had a stroke last night.  I just came back from the hospital and

from visiting her doctor.  The prognosis is not good.  Fourteen hours into

the stroke she is still unresponsive.  The will do a full stroke workup and

we are all praying for the best, but he told me to prepare for the worst.

This is her favorite spot in the garden.  I hope she will be able to sit 

there once again.  While the doctor believes she will not, I am not

going to stop hoping that she will.

This all happened so suddenly.  One moment she was fine and the next

one she was not.  The other day I posted about how my life had changed so

drastically in the past few months never thinking that in a couple of

days it would go through yet another drastic change.

I am feeling very numb.  It's hard for me to be home right now because 

every room reminds me of her.  Since she is in ICU, the visiting hours

are very limited so I will live in limbo until I can see her again.

I know I may have to let her go and that if I do I hope she will be

with my Daddy once again.  I know that she has missed him so much

these past three plus years.  But I just don't feel ready for this.  I doubt

that there is a way to be ready.  

I will let you know what happens.  Until then I will not be posting.

Love,

Susan