Where Are We Going Now?

Bentley and I have been meeting with you here in this blog spot

known as Ash Tree Cottage for a bit over five years now.  

It's hard to believe that it has been that long and yet in some ways

it seems as though it has been much longer.  

So much has changed.  We no longer live in our little cottage in

Idaho but now live in a sprawling mid century traditional surrounded

by giant Live Oaks, azaleas, ginger and banana trees.

My Mom and Daddy are both gone now and I am no longer working

outside the home.  All has been a huge change for me and I am trying to

adapt to it.

If you look closely at Bentley's picture it seems he has the same

question as I do ….

Where are we going now?

Some days we just hang out at home.  As nice as it is, it really took me a
while to feel at home here.  And I have to admit that I have gone through
some very dark days in the past year.  Days when I really did not want
to get out of bed and face the day.  So we didn't.  It was just Bentley and
me in our own little world until David would come home in the
evening.

But I allowed myself that time.  I was feeling my way along the new
path of my life.  Not really certain if it was safe to go any farther.
The enthusiasm with which I used to great the day had fled, or
perhaps it was just hiding, I don't know which but I know that
I was unable to grasp it.

We hit the road quite a bit.  I jumped at every opportunity to run away

for a while.  I kept thinking that maybe I would run into the old me while

on the road visiting a new town but I never found her.  

She wasn't in the Texas Hill Country ….

or at the beach, nor ….

sitting on the balcony of a hotel on the San Antonio River Walk.
Gone, she was gone and not coming back.

So now Bentley and I are left with a blank canvas.  It's a time
when we can start anew with fresh ideas and leave the past
behind.  We have been poor correspondents.  We have been
in hiding for too long.  It's time to forge a new path and we
don't really know where it will take us yet.  But we are looking
forward to the opportunities that we stumble upon and those
that we grasp along the way.

This space will be under some construction.  We need a
facelift and we also need to bring you some more
interesting conversation.  Stay tuned.

Big Texas Hugs,
Susan and Bentley