I have not wanted to admit this to myself, but have decided that it's time
that I did. I have been depressed for the past couple of years. I keep
telling myself that it will pass and that I will be happy again, but things
have happened that I won't go into right now, that have prevented me
from making progress out of the darkness.
I spent Monday evening, all day yesterday and today crying.
Something happened that set me back once again and now I feel
that I am now farther behind in my recovery. I feel as though
whenever things start to look up, someone says or does something
that sends me right back into that dark hole.
I don't want to feel this way. I have lots of reasons to be happy, yet
I'm not rebounding as I should.
I don't want to start taking drugs. I never have and I never will. I have
been able to overcome tragedy in my life without the aid of pills and
have managed just fine. But this time it seems that circumstances appear to
be working against me and I am struggling.
I am working on it, I really am. Just be patient with me.
Susan and Bentley