After Mom

The last few days have been extremely difficult ones.  Such a wide range of

emotions ~ deep sadness, a bottomless sense of loss, fatigue and heartache.

I have roamed around the house with no sense of purpose.  I kept thinking what

could I do to find something to occupy the empty moments?  And I found the

answer ~ decorate my Mom's bedroom.

Mom lived with decorating indecision.  She wanted to decorate her room, but

she could never decide on what exactly she wanted.  She was always a very

formal person, but I think that she was discovering that formal rooms are not

necessarily inviting ones.  She wanted warm and inviting but was not sure how

to get it.  I would offer suggestions, but she was determined to blaze her own 

trail even if she was uncertain where that trail would take her.

She fell in love with a few things at Hobby Lobby when we went shopping there

so I bought them for her for Christmas.  This blue door/mirror was one purchase.

A few months ago we found a set of three nesting tables from Soft Surroundings.
The third table is at the other end of this love seat.   They are really quite
charming.  If you have not checked out Soft Surroundings Home, you should.
Lots of great furniture pieces and accessories.  A fun catalog to explore.

This clock was another gift to Mom from Hobby Lobby.  

It's a cloudy day, but this room has lots of windows and on a sunny day is 

delightful.  Mom purchased this bench from Ballard Designs before we moved to 

Texas.  Her bed is currently unmade.  I had to move the mattresses and bed frame

and bench off to the side of the room to allow for the hospital bed and oxygen.

It took me a while before I could even walk into this room without collapsing into tears.

But I am determined to make this room pretty to honor her memory.  I want to paint 

the walls (we talked about that) and either change out the carpet or just pull it up and

revert to the hardwoods.  Carpet can be nice in a bedroom though.  

Her room has French doors that open out to the garden.  

It's really a lovely view,  even in winter.

We discussed painting her vintage French Provincial furniture pieces several 

times.  She was struggling with the color options.  That mirror is an antique that

came from a big hotel in Chicago.  I won't be painting it.

I'll tell you something funny about my Mom.  She had a habit of changing

wall art weekly.  When I paint this room there will be lots of patching up to do.

We often laughed about her "Swiss Cheese" walls.

Please don't get me wrong,  I miss her so greatly and this is the only
way I know how to do something for her and to help ease my pain.
It will be a project that will give me a sense of connection.  A place to
honor her memory and a place to sit and look at old family pictures.
It may seem frivolous to some, but we all grieve in our own way.
I hope you will follow along with me on this path to making Mom's
room a pretty place.

I also want to take this time to thank all of you for your very kind
words of sympathy.  Your thoughts and prayers have kept me going
throughout this difficult time.


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Big Texas Hugs,
Susan and Bentley