The reports of my death have been greatly exaggerated.
I disappeared for a while last week. David and Bentley and I took off for the
beautiful Texas Hill Country. It was a vacation from work for David. A fun
filled time of exploration for Bentley. A time for me to reflect. A mini
sabbatical if you will. I kept computer use to an absolute minimum. Didn't
text except when necessary. Watched very little television ~ particularly no news.
But then my blissful little escape came to a screeching halt when ….
I received a phone call from the funeral home that took care of my Mom.
I had paid the bill promptly so I knew they were not calling about that.
I had filled out the questionnaire regarding their services. Check that box
too. Why were they calling???
To see if they could send me some information about planning my own
What??? I am not ready to die. I am looking for ways to live life more
fully ~ not my last scene! There is so much more I want to do, to see, to
explore, to relish about life.
By the way ~ I picked up that cute little hobnail vase at an antique shop
in Fredericksburg. Would I do that if I were planning to die???
Or would I add this cute little birdhouse to my office? I think not.
I realize that everyone at some time in their life has to make some
decisions about their demise, and I will, but I am in no hurry to
bring down the final curtain.
What did I glean from my mini sabbatical? I learned that I have been
pushing myself in directions that just don't feel right to me. I have been
chasing after things that are not my dreams. I spent time thinking about
reconnecting to my authentic self.
So like the title of the book currently on my nightstand ~
Well Read, Then Dead
I am going to focus much more on my reading and writing.
I am going to take a course from Oxford. I will still be here at Ash
Tree Cottage but the tone of this blog will be a bit different.
For me, and I hope for my readers too, it will be a good thing.
Big Texas Hugs,
Susan and Bentley